Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thankful Thursday 39

My apologies to all those who have been visiting me the past week and was disappointed to see my last Thankful Thursday still as my most recent post. I am still adjusting to my new schedule given the arrival of our new baby, and so blogging may have to take a back seat for awhile until we have a more stable routine. Nevertheless, I am still going to be faithful to my Thankful Thursday posts, as I believe that nothing should ever prevent us from being thankful for our week's blessings, and from sharing them with others.

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What CHRIXEAN is thankful for this week

I am so, so thankful for the support of my family during this period of healing, recovery and adjustment. I know I haven't told Keira's birth story yet, but to give you an idea of what i went through -- after 12 hours of labor all the way to 10cm of dilation, I had to undergo an emergency C-Section because Keira's head was in a transverse position and had gotten stuck in my pelvic area. I cried when I found out that after all the waiting and the laboring I would end up having a surgery. It just goes to show that nothing really is within your control. I had prepared well for a normal delivery -- making sure I ate well and did my walking exercises. Throughout my nine months I made sure that I wasn't sedentary and that I moved around as much as I could. So up until the last minute when Keira's head was not progressing because it had already gotten jammed in my pelvic area, I was still hoping I could her push her out. But my doctor said she was going into distress and that they had to get her out as soon as possible. I was disappointed because I felt like such a failure, for not having delivered her normally as I did with Nicky. I know it wasn't my fault, but the feeling of frustration stayed with me all the way until I arrived back home. It was a difficult first few days for me. I didn't expect the pain of having a cesarean delivery to be this bad. I was limited with my movements, which prevented me from really being there for my baby girl. I felt so bad that I couldn't even carry her, because it could hurt my stitches.

Thank God for blessing me with a wonderful husband! Allan took on the mommy role from the moment I gave birth (till now, even!) -- watching over Keira through the night till early mornings, changing her nappies, bottlefeeding her (alternating with my breastfeeding), bathing her, putting her to sleep -- without expecting me to lift a finger till I was well and pain-free. Keira is now 2 weeks old, and by now, though I still have pains underneath my stitches, I have made an effort to hasten my healing by exercising and walking around as much as I could. I share baby duties with Allan now -- taking her to work with me (yup, i've gone back to work, but only a few hours a day just so I don't get stuck with unmet deadlines), so i could give my dear hubby the rest he well deserves.

I am thankful for the business the Lord has given us -- a home-based business where we are able to adjust our work hours to what the situation calls for, and we are able to give the necessary attention to our children without sacrificing our careers.

I am also especially thankful for my mom who offers an additional pair of hands when ours are already quite full. Having our family by our side right now is really a blessing for me, because I can focus on getting the physical, emotional and spiritual healing and recovery I most definitely need as I enter a new chapter in my life.

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eph2810 said...

I am thankful that you are doing so well already.
Please don't be frustrated with not have a 'normal' delivery. It just had to be done that way, so you and Keira were okay. I think you did a wonderful job with the delivery.

I am writing my thankful post right now. Hope you can stop by again.


Isn't it really great to have a great family beside you to always support you. Yes....this is just as one of the many people have to be thankful for.

Margaret said...

Happy Thursday and nice to meet you! Congratulations on your little blessing Keira.

Anonymous said...

Congrats!! Congrats!! The baby is beautiful!I am so sorry that u had to go through that. Important thing is- baby has arrived beautifully and safely:):)

Petite Queen said...

Woah!First time ever im hearing sumone goin bck to wrk after 2 weeks of having a C-sec!Ur extremely strong and energetic.Glad that ur doing well,juggling both your health,family and work.Hope u have a speedy and good recovery.Send my kisses to ur lil bundle of joy!

Meow said...

Don't be so hard on yourself, about it not being a "normal" delivery. You did all you could, and your baby's safety is paramount. You worked hard, girl, and you did a fabulous job.
I'm pleased that you are on the mend now ... I can't imagine the pain you must have been in. I also can't believe you are back at work again ... you are an amazing woman.
Congralations again on your new family member. I'm sure she will bring much love and happiness to your lives.
Take care, Meow

chinois97 said...

You are really a strong person. Just take it slow. I'm sure soon you will be back to your old routine but with beautiful Keira by your side. Send my regards to Allan too. You are really blessed to have a great husband like him.

Viamarie said...

Great blessings! Your recovery is well underway so there's nothing to worry and as far as the extra hand, your family will always be around.

Take Care!

slap me happy said...

first of all congratulatons to your family on the birth of such a beautiful baby girl, I am sorry that it did not go to plan but atleast she is here safe and well, and not to mention just perfect. Well done mommy. I had a little boy nearly two years ago now but it did not go to plan either but i would'nt trade the experience fro anything now for they all happen for a reason. any way stay well honey and take care for now